Thursday, March 29, 2012
I eat, sleep and breathe my work. It's the reason why I wake up each and every morning with an explosive joy in my heart, ready to make it perceivable through whatever medium I'm inspired to use, and share it with the world.
Needless to say this means z.e.r.o balance.
Over the past few years, I've really embraced the deep meaning of my being an artist, I've answered my calling, have come to the realization (also thanks to blogging) that what I feel and do is totally normal and having no balance is part of the game.
After I've been living ("camping" to be exact) in a temporary accomodation for more than one year now, and even if that has been quite a challenge in the beginning, I've gradually come to the understanding it has been unexpected, amazing, growing time for me, not only artistically speaking but also spiritually. I feel my heart is full now as it has never been before. And I feel I am now ready to totally embrace my word for 2012 and "bloom".
Blooming, showing up the spiritual qualities I wrote about in this post, also implies finding more balance. I suspect my chronic migraines and such are also a way of my body to tell me it's in dire need of rest. Ok, don't expect I'll cut drastically my studio hours (my darling agents would faint LOL), but I really really need to press the "pause" button sometimes, and carve out a bit more of that time out that makes the ride a wonderful adventure! I've learnt from my DH (and totally love the concept) it's all about the journey, not the destination. So I've committed (face to face with my heart) to take the scenic path... slow down, be still, really enjoy being still with no anxiety about what I should be doing, stop being too demanding with myself, breathe, eat slowly, take long daily walks with my husband and furbaby soaking up Nature and silence and enjoying being together, take more time for my daily inspirational readings, finally keep a journal, meditate more, explore more just for the sake of it, take one day a week off work, do all at my own pace. Without feeling guilty if I can't do it all.