... to make room for what I love, without having to make a lot of stuff with my precious hands for commercial purposes, but for my enjoyment only.
To make room in our home for the crafting supplies and the things that make me really happy, for what I really want to make (and not what has to"sell").
To just play, as I already work so much! No price tags to be applied to something that cannot have monetary value because of all of the immense love, patience and endless hours, decades of practice and acquired professional workmanship, that hardly competes with all of those shops that sell all kind of handmade on Etsy... even things they had just started to make a couple of months before.
I closed my handmade Etsy shop forever to free myself from the thought that really a few people bought something from me during all of these years of blogging (a big thank you, teary-eyed, to you!) even if my products have been top- notch and very well made with the best materials (and obviously, priced accordingly). I've suffered for that so, so much, but as my wise, darling hubby suggested, maybe the answer is in the question itself. It was not what I am meant to do, guidance has definitely been loud and clear! In the end I welcome the tears too, as perhaps without them I wouldn't have made this life- changing decision.
I closed my shop forever to finally be able to give my handmade creations freely to someone who really loves, needs and appreciates them. To just keep some in our home because we value each stitch, each second I spent creating them with all of my love.
After I have "hand-made" for all of my life, seeing just a few sales online and my work not appreciated, had stolen my joy. Having to make things that were supposed to sell, instead of those I wanted to make, had stolen my joy. Not having time to do all, being my job as licensing artist and photographer so demanding and my life something I chose to live in a certain way, had stolen my joy as well.
And instead, I choose joy!
Not that closing my shop means that I don't love handmade or that I won't make anything anymore! On the contrary, I bet I will find the time now that I made this long- due decision.
As for what I'm going to do with what I make, as friends asked me, something I'll keep, the rest I'll give freely. Love, Joy and Beauty are meant to be shared. Not that the bills will come for free for me, but so many people out there need a free smile. I'm sure that all that I need comes to me, as it always did and it always does, even if I don't offer for sale my handmade stuff anymore on Etsy.
"Making" will be just my hobby, and I'm excited to finally welcome playful relaxation in my life!